For me, it keeps coming back to, "What do I want to do?"
I know what that is. It's just not feasible.
So, I keep asking myself, "What do I want to do so I can do what I want to do?"
As I've been preparing to apply for grad school, I keep wondering if I'm looking into the right program, if I even want to go. But if I don't go into grad school, I wonder to myself, What can I even do with an English major?
So, I few days ago, I went to an on-campus meeting for individuals with budding aspirations in HR.
I didn't think about taking a picture of anything until after everything ended. |
HR might be a good fit for me. I don't know. I'm someone who has to really try something before I commit to it, but even if I give HR a nibble, I'm still making a long-term commitment doing something I might not necessarily enjoy. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that this mentality was true for every single job I could ever apply for.
One of my good friends happened to independently attend the same meeting. As we were talking afterward, I spouted off a strange analogy.
I like dating because I'm able to weigh what I don't like and what I adore about a person without necessarily making any real commitment to a full-on relationship with them. As I learn certain things about the people I date, then I'm able to offer educated prayers and consult with the Lord about things.
The thing about seeking for a career is that I can't weigh anything about what I think about potential employment opportunities. I can't pray to the Lord about specific pros and cons to each option, because I don't even know them myself!
In this sense, I think, finding employment is more of a trust exercise than even dating is. And so, as the months slip away, I know I will need to lean heavily on my support.
Hey! I wrote a commentary about this post on February 11, 2016. Click here to read it!
You should do an editing internship with the Church. The Joseph Smith Papers and others are always looking for editors. :)
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