I have a lot to complain about. My work and calling have been colliding, which has pushed back my schoolwork, and while I don't really care about schoolwork all that much, my desire to do well this semester has only shoved my creative projects, with the sole exception of this blog, completely to the side as I struggle to catch up. On top of all this, my computer decided to all but die on me, forcing me to clean the entire drive, reset it to its factory defaults, and set my own schedule back several days.
However, I didn't go into running the reboot with complaint. Well, OK, that's a lie, I definitely went in with complaint, but I left with a different sort of emotion.
Yesterday, I recognized that some things just need to be, well, refreshed. This is especially true of my current quarter-life crisis. One of my current classes (yes, that six-credit one) has really got me pondering if I really want to be an English major all the way through, and I have made plans, done research, and scheduled appointments with various individuals to determine my best course of action. I know that, should I decided to change my major, I will be subjected to opening a lot of wounds again.
But, I think that's the point. I could have kept on with the way my computer was acting. It still worked, to an extent. Sure, there were annoyances and glitches, but at least it was running, right? Sure, I can go on with a major that may not be a perfect match for me. At least I enjoy some of it, right?
I don't think so. If my life will be more enriched and with less stress in the long run, then I think it is an amazing opportunity to be able to call a mulligan. Indeed, that's the point of the Atonement. If we make a mistake, we can clear it off our board through repentance, and try, try again.
So! For now, let's see where I wander.
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